It is such a joy to feel the body again. Even though I do EBAS on a regular basis, I am finding myself missing the sensation of dancing and the physical sensations of training my body in the ways that I have in my past. I miss taking class on a daily basis honing my instrument and developing new understandings of my musculature.
I miss that sacred act of holding onto the barre and letting the live accompaniment wash over me as I find my standing legs and begin to bend my knees. Oh how I remember the joy of Larry Long’s class and how much it meant to me to be able to stand at a barre surrounded by amazing dancers from all over the country and even more inspiring to be in the room with a legendary teacher.
I think class is the thing I miss most about having transitioned to being a choreographer and teacher. I miss the simplicity of taking care of only myself in the classroom and focusing on myself and the needs of my body. I miss the bliss of an hour and a half of serenity in the act of technique. I miss the meditation of class. It was such a luxury and blessing that I wish I could get back in my life.
In some small ways, we are doing that as Amaranth is rebuilding again. We got together yesterday and spent time in the act of training as we are finding our physical bodies and our dancing bodies once again. It is so wonderful to be able to share that with others who crave the training and the conditioning of their own bodies as well. It is a blessing to be able to share that in a supportive community of like minded and like spirited creative beings.
I am thankful today for being able to feel my body speaking to me. It is saying how much it loves the art of training. It is feeling as if it is returning to life with a renewed sense of being as it remembers what long, taught, sinuous muscles feel like. I am grateful to be feeling as if my physicality is coming alive through technique. I am honored that my body desires it as much as I do and pleased that I am able to carve our a little sacred time once again just for me.