31 Thursday May 2018
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inspiration, lessons learned, letting go, life, love, loving, Mindful Action, observations, open mind, opportunity, simple thought, thoughts
Only Magical thinking lives within our thoughts
Imagining the sounds, I am able to vision a different ending
My mind consciousness like smoke
My ritual is love and attention
Memorizing finally forgotten
I could love again
23 Monday Jun 2014
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Believing, Conscious Living, contemporary dance, courage, Courageous Vulnerability, Creative Flow, Creativity, Dance, Energy, heart path, journey, Magic, Mindful Action, modern dance, Teaching, universal consciousness, universal heart
I made it to Paris with only one hitch. My bag somehow took a flight to Charlotte instead of Philly with me. As I was the last one standing at CDG, I soon realized I had an issue. All my clothes and toiletries were still in the states as I stood at carousel 3 waiting for my bag. Calmly. I waited.
I then went to the baggage claim area attendant to make a report and file the missing luggage. This was when I was told that someone in Richmond put my bag on a plane to where I was not. Isn’t that against TSA regulations? I digress.
Anyway, on a positive note, I only had my bags on my shoulders to carry on the RER and Metro to find my apartment. So I started my journey a little lighter than expected. The good thing was that if all went well, someone would hand deliver my outfits, unmentionables and toiletries directly to my door. Yet, I admit I was nervous that there was no real way to contact me and since I was staying in an apartment rather than a hotel, it would be a little more difficult to actually get the bad delivered.
At present I sit waiting in my apartment. I do know the bag made it to Paris and is supposedly on its way to being delivered. I have stayed at the apartment save the time I went out shopping for coffee, breakfast goodies and a few other nash items. Still no word or call. They do have the land line, but I know they didn’t call while I was gone as there were no messages left and no record of incoming calls.
The rest of the day has been full of classical music wafting throughout the apartment with much writing and reading on my part. I have been forced to take a day of quiet contemplation and rest. Much needed rest and much desired quiet time as well. I often forget how much I like quiet and alone time. As I mentioned before in my writing, I do like embracing my introvert behaviors and often do not honor them enough. Clearly someone at RIC decided I needed to get reacquainted with that part of myself.
None the less, I am here and in perfect bliss. Staying in an apartment in the 3rd Arr. in Paris while I have time to think and to expand my current understanding of time, I am in a Scott heaven. It is so nice to be back here and in a place that is congruent with my pace of life and with the workings and wirings of my being.
I am often in a position where I question myself within the confines of my culture and feel as if the way in which my brain works, I process, and desire to walk the path of my life is somehow not as good as others. Yes, I often feel as if the way in which I am put together is oddly enough not acknowledged or honored.
Living a non-western life within a western culture is a little difficult at times. Being an introvert in an extrovert world is also challenging as introverts are seldom recognized for their thought process or quiet and contemplative ways. As if it wasn’t enough being a second class citizen who is a dancer and gay at that. Adding up all the marks against me I often wonder why I haven’t given up all together?
Yet, I know the answer to that. I do. I realize that I am making choices in my life that are right for me. I have taken the heat for it over and over again, but still make the choices that are congruent with my heart speak. In doing so, one is often labeled as the mean one or the one who speaks out when he shouldn’t. Even though it needs to be said and everyone knows it, still the ass for saying it. Which is also odd being that I prefer not to speak in the first place. I hate public speaking.
But is it any wonder that I prefer the art of dance where I do not have to speak in public at all? Not at all. I like the abstract world of contemporary imagistic ephemeral moments that take people deep within their own reality to suggest questions that sometimes do not get asked. Yes, I like to pose a question without speaking words but by merely crafting an image to plant the seed of thought. Even if it needs attending to or gets trampled on, I like that way of communicating the best.
And now that I have found the confidence to share my thoughts and ideas through words, it is no wonder that the words are on a page or screen that still keep me at a safe distance in a way that allows a reader to absorb it in the ways in which are best or most appropriate for them. I am finding that communicating in this form is helping me to find the right ways in which to read a different audience than a dance audience. As well as it helps me to even crystalize and create my three dimensional story telling in space.
I have always had a dream that I whispered to the universe of wanting to write a book. And this I am doing. It is taking me time, but I write daily the meanderings of my thoughts on technique and choreography. They are not traditional thoughts by any means. They are rooted in very eastern practices with clearly more unique ways of attending to the art of listening to the process rather than manufacturing a product. I am embracing this as I have embraced the time a lost bag can help a lost heart.
28 Wednesday May 2014
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Conscious Living, courage, Courageous Vulnerability, Dream, faith, heart, heart path, hope, love, Mindful Action, path, present living and loving, universal consciousness, universal heart
The best way to speak of love is to live in love. The best way to share a dream is to live in the presence of it. The only way one can truly speak of anything is through their actions. Words are abstract intellectual musings that do not compare to the present moment of the action. There is an immediacy in the art of living that cannot be matched by representations of what has passed. Spend time in the presence of love and in the fulfillment of your hearts dreams. It is here that we resonate with every other single humane being who has ever been or will ever be.
11 Sunday May 2014
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acceptance, Ballet, Believing, choreography, Conscious Living, contemporary dance, courage, Courageous Vulnerability, Creative Flow, Creativity, Dance, Energy, faith, heart, heart path, journey, Mindful Action, Modern, modern dance, Seeing, Soul to Soul, spirit, universal heart, Vulnerable
Perhaps it is time to acknowledge once again the vibrations of my being. I admitted to myself that I am a healer and that in doing so I accepted myself as a being healing both body and soul through the art of dance. This past year has been transformative in ways that I could not have possibly imagined. Ironically, one of the biggest people who have transformed from this shift in conscious acceptance has been me.
The year has been a journey, but the year is now in the past and I stand at a present fork in the road. The choice is to move forward adding to or to move around and circle back. As I face this choice, I realize I must move forward. To accept myself, as just a healer is not the complete fully vibrational being I am. I know there is much missing; much left undone and undiscovered.
What is speaking to me in this moment of choosing is the creative heart. I have been very prolific this year, yes. However, I have not fully realized the wealth of this stream. I have waded, but I have not immersed myself fully and let the currents of this universal creative flow carry me. The choice to make is to travel the path of the river flowing towards the vast ocean of creative wonder and ultimately creative surrender.
I realize that being a healer and acknowledging myself and my gifts in this arena was more a journey of healing myself. I am figuring that out now and will continue to heal others and myself through movement as I add in another claim. I was given a name not too long ago that brought much light and laughter but in really looking at it, the universe is nudging me to accept my name in the role at which I need to embrace. Now, I have chosen to absorb the identity that was gently whispered making the two parts of my being whole.
The path I choose is to float with faith as a healing wizard. An enchanted being healing and crating with magic and wonder. It is time to be bold in my artistic statements letting the vision create transformative enchanted landscapes by the light of the stars. This is but a development of a healer and an expansion of the creative voice no longer fearing the clamoring of the doubtful and fearful crowd.
What magic will be revealed as the healing and kinetic spells are cast? This is the right of waving the creative wand.
01 Thursday May 2014
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Believing, choreography, contemporary dance, courage, Courageous Vulnerability, Creative Flow, Dance, faith, heart, journey, joy, light, love, Mindful Action, modern dance, Soul to Soul, Teaching, Technique, training
Blind Sight
If you were to possess the ability to see, that which does not exist, you would most clearly understand the depth and expanse of your immediate reality. You would understand that there are things that surround you, carry you, and support the very vibration that is you.
If you could allow yourself to trust in the Universe to guide you, humble yourself in faith so deep you would radiate the light, you would believe that underneath it all, you already possess the wings to fly.
What you do not know does not mean it is not already there. You already embody what is needed to soar beyond your wildest imaginings and the question now is whether you will be able to see it inside yourself and in those that surround you at this present moment.
There is a great animal inside of you. Let it be free. Let it be your companion on this journey tonight. You have built a relationship with it to no longer fear it. Wild does not mean without heart, it means living with an enchanted abandonment that our hearts hunger to express. Run alongside that animal, for it is the very embodiment of the spirit within.
These are the spirits I see with my blind sight; the spirit of your true nature in all of its glory. Do you have the courage to see it yourself while allowing for a moment, others to see it in you, too?
01 Thursday May 2014
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Ballet, choreography, Conscious Living, contemporary dance, Dance, Dream, heart path, hope, journey, light, Mindful Action, Modern, path, patience, Soul to Soul, spirituality, training, universal consciousness, universal heart
Bridging the River of Timelessness
With each step, we are pushed upwards towards the heavens. With each breath, heaven absorbs us. We live in a constant state of rise and fall, evolution and demise as well as continual transformation. This is what creates the movement that guides us all towards the ultimate freedom of transcendence.
In these quiet, contemplative steps, we must be mindful of the very moments we inhabit. These moments help us to understand the magnitude of our being in order to recognize the bridges needed to cross the river of timelessness.
There needs to be no fear for what is to come. That which is our present, is the angel that keeps us safe. In this present moment of awareness, we understand all things as time ceases to have importance. It is this moment that the universe allows you to glimpse the radiant glory of timelessness itself. And because of this insight, you know, in the deepest parts of your spirit, that there is nothing to fear for you are the light of the universe and the universe is the light of you.
06 Wednesday Nov 2013
Posted in Musings, Soul to Soul, Uncategorized
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Believing, Conscious Living, courage, Courageous Vulnerability, Dream, Love Between Men, Mindful Action, poetry, Soul to Soul, thoughts, universal heart, well being, Wonder
Just what was in front of me
an open door
doors of all the rooms I ever lived in
I didn’t move
waiting
this is where I lay
wrapped in love
voices coming from an ancient language
I close my eyes
remembering
he was every boy I had ever fallen for
I sat down and let it come
I wiped my eyes
I know I love him
06 Monday May 2013
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Believing, Conscious Living, courage, Courageous Vulnerability, Creative Flow, faith, heart, Mindful Action, Soul to Soul, spirit, Stepping, universal consciousness, universal heart, well being
A mountain of books surrounds me. I climb in so as to climb out of myself. I ascend the many precipices of my unknown potential. I boulder now, ascending if you will, without the safety of my ropes of fear; those very same ropes that have always ended up hanging me. I move along scaling my dreams sometimes leveraging my greatest thrusts only by a small sliver of hope. I propel with the body of my entire being knowing that at some point, some moment, I will look out to see ever more mountains to read.
28 Monday Jan 2013
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choice, Conscious Living, Courageous Vulnerability, journey, Mindful Action, Soul to Soul, spirit, Understanding, universal consciousness, universal heart, well being
As we move from the age of Pisces into the age of Aquarius we must also be mindful of making monumental shifts of our own at the micro level. At the Macro level, there will be a change of consciousness in our spiritual relationship to the greater forces in the universe. At this change we too must shift our consciousness and spiritual connectivity to accept the sacred again both in our own beings as well as in the beings with which we share this great journey and planet with.
It is the time of weaving our words with integrity and whispering truth so it soon becomes something we can believe in again rather than run from. We have ignored the reality of our complete being as we have hidden from the truth in order to activate a false sense of power and worth in the world. Truth has lost over the last few thousands of years to the dominating culture of power, repression and selfishness.
Now is the time, as we are at the shifting of ages, to weave our words while we whisper them into the world.
09 Sunday Dec 2012
I have come to understand the relationship between a conscious awareness of center line integration and the extremities of the body. If one does not find an anchor from the intrinsic strength established by a physical understanding of anchoring ones movement from the ascending and descending energy of the center-line, then the outside eye will be able to detect a weakness and imbalance by observing the body trying to grab on to space exhibiting unnecessary tension in the extremities.
When a dancer has tension in the wrist, elbow and shoulders; or in the inability to track the ankle knee hip appropriately, one is not accessing the necessary strength found within the strength of center line practice. If the connection to the flow of energy from the center line is blocked or broken, it will be reflected elsewhere in the body.
Dancers are much weaker than they realize especially when it comes to understanding how to access the integration of center-line practice and strength in the standing leg. It is crucial in the physical developmental growth of a dancer to take the time to build strength, integration and open energetic pathways through repetition so that they might understand clearly how to make the shifts and changes they need to anchor themselves the space within themselves that resides along the upper and lower center lines of the body.
There has been a disservice done to students who are only experiencing movement to keep their minds busy rather than experiencing a conscious understanding of how to activate technical skills to fulfill the movement experience in the first place. If a student just moves about space hoping to get something right rather than really understanding in the moment how to put said technical skill into practice, the dancer will then be at the mercy of fate or the odds to get the information rather than spending the right kind of time necessary in order to make the shift themselves.
If we continue to teach movement for the sake of movement administering movement as a baby sitter to keep the mind of the student distracted from the reality of technique; we not only do the student an egregious disservice to their educational process, but we also weaken the opportunity for technique to evolve or reside with integrity inside the art form itself.
